The youngest one. He don’t know. He thinks that things could get fixed at home. His older brother, captured on film. Trying to shut the whole thing down. And then there’s mom. Behind that smile, her thoughts are traveling for miles. Thoughts of escape. Feelings of fear. ‘Cause by now she knows the end is near. You’re at Universal Studios, But this is not a movie. Your family’s in a chariot and they’re crashing. You’re at universal studios, acting in a tragedy. Pretending you’re a normal happy family Well I guess everyone is living little lies. All the time / Not all the time. Well I guess everyone is living little lies. All the time / Not all the time. And then there’s dad. He’s not quite there. Back then he wasn’t anywhere. Put your arm around your wife. It’s full of cracks, this simulacrum of a life. Not every family stays together and you got to make some sense out of that. Not every family stays together and you got to make some sense out of that. Not every family stays together and you got to make some sense out of that. Not every family stays together and you got to make some sense out of that. Not every family stays together and you got to make some sense out of that.

I used to think I knew how much self doubt one man could have. But now, I’m not so sure. You might think that all I need to do is look inside myself, but I don’t know if I’m the right guy for that job. CHORUS: Do what you want! Do what you want! Sounds real good if you know what you want. What do you want? What do you want? Um…. Shout out to the student who doesn’t know she’s doing. But she’s heard college comes after high school. Shout out to the worker who can’t remember when he started or why. Shout out to the mother, finding out that having children ain’t enough, and she don’t know what would be. Shout out to the child, finding out that finding yourself is a myth. (Because you don’t exist.) (That’s what Buddha insists) CHORUS CHORUS Next time, next time, I’m gonna reincarnate as something that knows exactly what it wants Maybe a snake, maybe a snail. Maybe a fish, maybe a whale Maybe a dog, maybe a cat Maybe a pig, maybe a bat Maybe a cow, Maybe an ox Maybe a goose, maybe a fox Maybe a bug, maybe a bird Maybe a newt, maybe a worm But would you still be you and still not know what to do?

I took a walk by the river Sunglasses on my face though the sky’s been dark and cloudy all day long and I’m scrolling through my contacts ‘cause I know I’m ‘bout to lose it and I need some human contact to make it through CHORUS: ‘Cause I’m a wreck. I’m a wreck. I can’t keep my shit together. I can’t keep myself in check I’m a wreck. A total wreck. I need to sit down quick or my lunch might just eject. So I text my friend Sarah and she tells me I should breathe and reminds me that I’m not a total failure As I’m sitting by the river, hidden in the weeds I pray that no one on the trail can hear me weeping CHORUS CHORUS etc.

She got the Kia, I got the Honda. She got the mattress, I got the bedframe. She got the Zita, I got the Frog and Toad. She got the Langley, I got the Beres. But I am mostly feel grateful that we were mostly so civil. But it’s weird, dividing a life like this. But the truth is, we had more stuff than we knew what to do with. Don’t need more stuff We took the king size bed to the dump and We sold the Taga bike to an old friend. We put some mason jars in a free box. We left the awning back in the garage. We asked the neighbors, “Could we use your trash cans?” We got no place to park our old camper van. We sold our garden tools at the yard sale. But now we’ll sell our house and that’s a hard sell. I don’t need any more stuff. etc.

Well we need to hit the road. But every time we try to leave, we remember something and go back inside. I don’t know how there could be so goddamned many things that we keep forgetting. Like his water bottle, your sunglasses, my driver’s license, and now where is my phone? Well I don’t know how to leave this house. And I don’t know how... I know it might feel like you’re never gonna leave but I know you will. You’ve got to believe me.

And you may find yourself Living in a shotgun shack And you may find yourself In another part of the world And you may find yourself Behind the wheel of a large automobile And you may find yourself in a beautiful house With a beautiful wife And you may ask yourself, well How did I get here? Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down Letting the days go by, water flowing underground Into the blue again after the money's gone Once in a lifetime, water flowing underground And you may ask yourself How do I work this? And you may ask yourself Where is that large automobile? And you may tell yourself This is not my beautiful house! And you may tell yourself This is not my beautiful wife! Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down Letting the days go by, water flowing underground Into the blue again after the money's gone Once in a lifetime, water flowing underground Same as it ever was Same as it ever was Same as it ever was Same as it ever was Same as it ever was Same as it ever was Same as it ever was Same as it ever was Water dissolving and water removing There is water at the bottom of the ocean Under the water, carry the water Remove the water at the bottom of the ocean! Water dissolving and water removing Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down Letting the days go by, water flowing underground Into the blue again into silent water Under the rocks and stones, there is water underground Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down Letting the days go by, water flowing underground Into the blue again after the money's gone Once in a lifetime, water flowing underground You may ask yourself What is that beautiful house? You may ask yourself Where does that highway go to? And you may ask yourself Am I right? Am I wrong? And you may say yourself "My God! What have I done?" Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down Letting the days go by, water flowing underground Into the blue again into the silent water Under the rocks and stones, there is water underground Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down Letting the days go by, water flowing underground Into the blue again after the money's gone Once in a lifetime, water flowing underground Same as it ever was Same as it ever was Same as it ever was Same as it ever was Same as it ever was Same as it ever was

Did you see the way I didn’t fall in love today? I just walked, out my door, and came home a little later still not in love, Now granted, my eyes were closed. But still it’s pretty good, given where I’m at. So did you see the way I didn’t fall in love today? Next time, maybe if I’m brave, I’ll go where there are people. But then again, I don’t wanna get ahead of myself, maybe I’ll practice on the TV. CHORUS: First Come First Served is not a policy for finding someone you can spend your life with First Come, First Served there’s got to be a better way First Come First Served It’s not romantic just to fall in love with anyone who likes you First Come, First Served there’s got to be a better way. Falling in and out of love is not supposed to be a step function. CHORUS

My life is falling apart like it's never done before. It's an open door to the outside. But it's up on the second floor. I wish my dad was around to give me no advice at all. It'd be just like old times but sometimes I think it'd just be nice is all. 'Cause my dad could appreciate a failing state, a situation much too late to undo; Someone who could shrug his shoulders, saying, "shit man, ooh, what are you going to do?" And I'd say, "I have no fucking clue." (Except, maybe dance.) Ha ha ha, I'm laughing at you. Ha ha ha, as your life falls apart. Ha ha ha, I'm laughing at you. 'Cause you're pathetic, but sympathetic. 'Cause we've all been there. Yes you're pathetic, but sympathetic. And I think I like you. Every now and then you've got to take a leap - Take a leap of faith. You don't know just what is going to happen, but you know you've got to make a change. [repeat] You don't ever have to let someone make you feel small. Not at all. You don't ever have to let someone make you feel small. Not at all.

You have nine minutes to eat your lunch, but you must walk while eating, through the wetlands. So you eat an orange and come to class with sticky hands Don’t get distracted but there’s a rabbit right outside your window. Sorry class, what was I saying? Oh yeah: An understanding that transcends any rule based system... Don’t get too attached to any way of life. Well, that’s what Buddha says. Get it together. Don’t get too attached to any way of life. Well, that’s what Buddha says. That’s what Buddha says, that’s what Buddha says. That’s what Buddha says, that’s what that’s what Buddha says. You can choose your path. You don’t have to just take what you’re given. You can choose your path. You don’t have to just take what you’re given. I know I get sad sometimes. I just lie on a bench and stare at the sky. You can choose your path. You don’t have to just take what you’re given.

Goodbye to a lot of bad stuff. And goodbye to a lot of good stuff. Goodbye to my home, our home. Goodbye to not being alone. And hello to I don’t know what yet. Well I guess I get to figure it out. To figure it, figure it out myself this time I guess I, I guess I, I guess I get to figure it out myself, out myself, out myself You can’t say goodbye to your-- Take yourself home. (You can take that any way you want to.) You can take it -- ha ha oh oh oh... Make yourself whole. You can do that any way you need to. You can take control of your life.